I’ve been where you are now…
Welcome- I’m so happy that you’re here!
A little about my Highly Sensitive Journey:
If your story is anything like mine you were told countless times growing up that you were too sensitive, too emotional, and too intense. I was taught by my family, teachers and many of my peers that there was something wrong with me because I reacted strongly to many of the things that were happening around me and to me. I tell my story because I know I am not alone in the way our Highly Sensitive experiences shape and influence our lives.
As a kid my family life was chaotic, filled with verbal abuse, emotional neglect, indifference, depression, alcoholism, and opioid abuse. Shuffled between the multiple households of my divorced and remarried parents, to my aunt and uncle, and grandparents, some of whom meant well, but none with the compassion or kindness that a vulnerable child requires to flourish. I knew what was happening around me wasn’t healthy, but with no support and no safe haven, I was completely powerless to change anything. Because I had no experience in what healthy relationships looked like it took me decades to understand how deeply my childhood environment as a Highly Sensitive Person affected me. The years of instability, anger, and sadness that filled my childhood senses, nervous system, mind, body, and soul left me habitually overwhelmed and overstimulated. I was completely powerless to change anything like most children. I didn’t have the language to express my feelings and emotions so I internalized them.
I tell my story because I know I am not alone in the way our Highly Sensitive experiences shape and influence our lives.
It took many years for me to acknowledge the pain I carry from how I grew up, to embrace my Highly Sensitive trait and to begin my journey of emotional and physical healing.
So how did I begin and how have I stayed on the path? Of course I’ve had many trials and errors, successes and failures, and believe me I still do…
But what it honestly came down to for me was 3 things:
forgiving my parents and family for being human beings with faults
making healthy choices about who I allow into my life
and Yoga which made the first two things possible.
My path to Yoga was not a straight one. I had practiced on and off for many years, an unseen force always pulling me towards the practice, but also something I didn’t understand pulling me away. It wasn’t until I was ready to fully embrace and appreciate the extent of my trauma that I understood those long-standing opposing forces that ruled my consciousness for long. Yoga is a science of self-realization and self-love, two self-care actions that were not only foreign to me, but ones that I didn’t truly believe I deserved.
Yoga is a science of self-realization and self-love, two self-care actions that were not only foreign to me, but ones that I didn’t truly believe I deserved.
All of the unkind and uncompassionate voices that filled my head and my heart for so long were still there, telling me that I wasn’t worthy enough to practice Yoga, that it was for other people who weren’t as messed up and damaged as I was. And yet… Yoga never abandoned me. The practice continued to call me back at different times in my life. Joyful times, like when I finally met someone compassionate, patient, and supportive that I could spend my life with, to times of sorrow when I lost my mother to decades of opioid abuse.
Yoga never abandoned me.
Embracing Yoga and the healing introspection and self-discovery it offers has infinitely improved my self-worth, relationships and my perspective in the world. The road can still be a rough one at times, and I can still feel both opposing forces, but because of my Yoga practice I now possess the self-awareness and self-love to choose which I will listen to.
Thank you for letting me share my story with you. You know it’s never an easy thing to do, but our HSP stories are so important and the world needs to hear more of them.
I hope that by sharing mine it will be a little easier to share yours.
With Love from my Highly Sensitive Heart to Yours,